i'm lost at sea, don't bother me

slow down
just thinking of writing a few things here but when i get down to it i always forget what i want to say, it is hot as heck out here., like 110 everyday so i usually wait for after the sun goes down to do anything active like tennis or golf for me lately. / been listening to lykke li, vampire weekend, beach boys, mgmt, css, and no age so much good music being made out in the world today it is silly. i love getting concussions, i wish they would happen to me more often, i can recall about eight or so,, i love the feeling of them. i hope i get another one soon. i also love drinking during the day, i have been a lot lately but once i have a few i am so much happier, i know that sounds bad but it is true. i enjoy being happy so i keep it going, smoking is also enjoyable but is mostly at night time. i was kind of sweating a random d test but its all good. so if anyone agrees with me don't be shy and let me know it is ok to be happy. and please inform me what you have been listening to lately i am always looking for new music to check out, i never got that into limewire but it is quite good, i almost always find what i am after., well good day for now./

Current Music: mgmt - eletric feel

still alive and well, time to pretend
las vegas is very hot this time of the year and many rad shows don't really stop in vegas either. but coldplay is playing on saturday night at the mgm i am really looking forward to. i also got tickets for radiohead at the la bowl, getting into some new and older music lately, steve winwood, the whigs, mgmt, and the new m83 album i really enjoying listening to. of course it has been a while, the new radiohead album is really good... and the new coldplay album is getting worn out some, i was back in ohio for the last 8 or 9 days for a wedding and to see some family it was a good time. i really get into trouble those open bar parties, but i guess it is allowed. also going to a hole in the wall bar at 1 pm the day after the wedding drinking a few pitchers with my brother in law is always fun, we were the only two in the place along with the bartender... i love those touch screen music jukeboxes, i had the place rocking and i got a free shot of jeager because she liked the music as well. until another few months then, hope everyone is well and is enjoying life. good day // kc

Current Music: coldplay - lost

strawberry fields
it always falls apart then, for the last seven or eight years i seem to fall apart after period of time when i am doing well. and i am sick of it, it takes me months to recover from this, this time i don't want to recover at all, i would like to just be over it all. drinking and smoking doesn't help clear my mind much but yet i still do it. my kitties and music are what i love still, i used to enjoy writing. live shows are nice also. i have stopped working for four months or so now and just living off my savings from last year that i worked hard for, i dislike money. i was thinking of getting rid of my car, mazda six a 2004 it is to luxurious for me, i can get a good amount of money for it and give a bunch of it to my mother i think. in rainbows it very good indeed, all i need & videotape i can't stop listening to. everything you love finds a way to turn evil. night // kc

Current Mood: strawberry numb cough
Current Music: rat race - marley

hello then
i am twenty seven,. worked as a poker dealer here in california for a year and a half. i will be moving to vegas in early september with my two kitties and my lady. i saw the shins in the city a month ago or so it was such a good show. bjork at shoreline amp near san jose was also good times. and last weekend at berkeley was acrade fire, i love live shows a lot, it had been a while for me but i have to go to more live shows they make me happy. i think that is all, i am going to go home to ohio for a week or so in july to see the family, my sister has three kids, two little girls who have both been born since i have been gone. i don't know much of them with makes me sad some. good day

Current Music: decemberists - crane wife

later gator
the year is almost over. i have been working dealing cards for the whole year now trying to save and learn. it is tough seeing all those people gamble and lose lots of money. we see the same people over and over day after day, my drinks are goods though. my gal is now tending a bar so i get more drinks for the price of one which i don't mind. still no snow in california, which is still a lot better than ohio. in the new year i going to try not to drink and whatnot for a while and see how that goes. i need to get some new music soon, i have been listening to a lot of reggae still it is very happy music. hope all had a good year and all in good health

it has been a while then
occasionally check this journal but never seem to have anything to say. and it has been almost a year so i thought now will work. california is much better than ohio could be. it is sunny and warm all of the time. i am enjoying the sun and my kitties like it to.
i have been working as a poker dealer for the last six months or so and enjoying work, sitting down a lot is the only part i guess that is no good sometimes. classes are hard to stay awake in when my dream time schedule is all messed up, i don't get more than eight hours a day. but i will sleep when i am dead i guess. i am going to go to vegas and play some poker and watch some poker and relax. jesus and darwin are wrestling in the sun knocking over their water dish and trying to get me to feed them. done . and i am going to lay and give it my best for a bit then. good day

live is ok in california
classes are still going on now. i have a new place now it is in a nice area of santa rosa, really close to wine country. mostly now some family and friends want to come and visit, or go on wine tasting tours and see me on the side. not entirely, but life it going well for now. i have the perfect job for me while i am in school still and whatnot, i am teaching kids from one to age nine soccer. it is so fun just to play with the little kids and get paid(quite well). and the older kids just trying to help with getting better at the game. out here on the in the sun a few close friends i have met introduced me to some new music, happy music and a better look on life. reggae music is good stuff, the live shows are amazing,, the crowds are so diverse and everyone just loves the music and you can feel the goodness. some people do smoke at the shows yes, but for me it is such a high just being around so many happy people that are enjoying good music and enjoying life. on a bad note i have almost given up all hope on finding jesus, my perfect kitty, it has been a while since i have seen him but i miss him the same. i might try to get another cat some time soon because now i don't have to rely on roommates to keep the doors closed anymore. moving on i am off now to play tennis in the sun and then some of those classes things again. hope all are well and having a pleasant day in your lives // kc

Current Mood: sunny days
Current Music: elliott smith - good will hunting sdtk

rubbish
my roomates let my cat out almost two months ago now., he was an indoor car and he is still missing. california is sunny and not so bad. i moved out and got a new place with some other people but it doesn't seem to be getting better., neither of my roomates now have cars or jobs., that is all really.

sore, stiff, & cold then
i have started working out with the soccer team here and i am sore some today. i have been playing well considering i haven't really don't anything active in a while. i am so glad i have jesus, he makes me happier. i woke up yesterday morning with him in the middle of the room on his back with all his limbs spread out and the sun shinning on him through the window and he was loving it. his purring alone in the morning wakes me up he lays right by my head and goes nuts. this morning he actually took up like half the bed and didn't move all night, right up against my back., a silly kitty. good day i say. the sun is shinning

Current Mood: yarrr
Current Music: grandaddy - lava kiss

yarrr in cali still
it is going ok. i am working finally,. delivering pizzas in a area far from where i live and i don;t know the area at all. i had trouble getting to the store the first day. but a job is a job and i am looking for something else always. classes going ok,. i am taking some rubbish to pass the time and my soccer class got canceled because not enough people./ that was my favorite class., humbug. i have been trying to quit the smoke and whatnot but it is hard., i have been going two or three days at a time and then breaking down and relaxing and whatnot. that is pretty much it,. my kitty has been with me for almost two weeks i think he makes it better, he is getting into a lot of stuff though. lots of grandaddy and flaming lips and whatnot., i think i am going to skate more with my free time., good day i say,. good day. it is raining outside,. at least it's not snowing. /// kc

Current Music: when you're twenty two - flaming lips

colder than i thought
it is winter in the states and it is cold and rainy in calfornia. classes start in about a week and hopefully i have a job by then i have a few leads. i miss my kitty very much and and trying not to smoke all that much., i will try to update this once or twice a month oye. i guess i am somewhat better here than in ohio. i will get back to you'all. good day

goodbye to ohio [then]
i am leaving ohio for good in about 6 days now, i am moving to santa rosa, ca. my kitty jesus will be coming out no more than two months after that and that is going to be one of the hardest things. leaving my nephew/godson is tough, but as of late he is always doing something with a friend or playing video games and whatnot. i am driving out there alone and i am picking out about 25 cds or so to listen to as i go. today it snowed a lot in cleveland ohio and i enjoy driving in the snow and all that but i don't like being really cold. it is somewhat northern california which is ok because i don't really enjoy the sun and hot weather so much. that is pretty much it, i am getting together money for gas and some food. i have first months rent and an ok job lined up, school starts two weeks into the new year. hope everyone is well, good day i say.

Current Music: spoon

no subject
silly holidays and cold weather is what we are in for now in ohio. for many months to come and hopefully i am gone from this place before the coldness is. i am still very lame.

Current Mood: zoo
Current Music: in my head

not much to say then
i am not exciting to read about or to know. so i thought of one thing i could let everyone know about me and why i only post something once a month. i really enjoy the cold weather and wear numerous layers of whatnot, and can't not wear sock because my feet get very cold easily. but all of my socks have been getting on my nerves so much and i am going crazy... they are all very tight on my ankles and i itch and want to take them off but if i take them off my feet get very cold very quick. life is such a tough task,,. fucking bloody socks and there tight parts can go to hell. [proof why i should not update my journal often so i don't waste your time. i read a funny statement on another page, someone saying they started their medication for about 7 or 8 months and look forward to "being happy"., just sounds funny and odd to me i guess. i have to end it at that., have a good day everyone. arrrrrrrrrr

Current Music: elliott smith // don't go down

sorry
i am going to get those photos into a link so the post is not so big, hopefully in a day or so., i may need help if anyone know what to add///

photos of perfection and then me

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thirsty kitties

sleepy shoes

best mail ever

lame me

yarrr

Current Music: grandaddy

no work today, keep on raining
well i am back home from a few months now, working outside all day and all week, 55 hours a bloody week landscaping all sorts of things and being tired all the time. even today and i have no work because it is raining. my kitty is getting neutered today and i am nervous, i want him to come home now... a few more hours. i saw garden state a long while ago, i really enjoyed it a lot. last night i saw donnie darko on the big screen finally, i liked the director's cut somewhat better, a few songs were switched and i did not like that as much. new bjork is very well done and i picked up the keane album i am enjoying it more than expected. waiting for eternal sunshine dvd to come out about two more weeks and last elliott smith album in about 40 days and counting. that's all for now and soon i will be happier and sleeping. good night then.

Current Music: new bjork album

once more then
i am pretty much done in dayton now then, i will be moving back to cleveland for about two months before i move to las vegas. i am hopefully going to get a full time job for six of seven weeks to save up some money. all goes well i will be there at the start of october. my kitty is still as perfect as ever and i will get a photo of two of him up soon i hope. garden state should be out soon, i have to check and see when it is out at cedar lee, where i work it opens aug 27th, but dayton ohio is a small rubbish place and hopefully it opens at least two weeks earlier here. not really sure about much else. when i am not home i miss my kitty, and when i am sleeping he is in my dreams. and when he wakes me up he is nice to me and just lays around with me and does not demand for me to get up and feed him right then. he is almost eight months old and i hope he stops growing and stays how he is forever. good day to you all.

Current Music: radiohead - fog

yarrr
i am out of dayton in about two months time. i am looking forward to that. my car has been broken for a month now and i don't mind all the walking all that much. i think i am going to get my sisters old car pretty soon here. my older sister had her baby girl on the 6th of july and i celebrated that on weds with some new whatnot i have never tried before. and it last about ten or twelve hours and it was fun. i was so happy the whole time laughing and feeling like i was seven again, i want to try it again sometime soon. that is all really have a good day everyone. yarrr

Current Music: radiohead - kid a

about a year then
i have been in dayton ohio for about a year and a few days then, it has gone well i'd say. classes start today. and my car broke down finally yesterday. so now i get to walk everywhere and not pay for car ins. or gas anymore. walking is better and on top of all that it started raining hard core so i was happy. looking forward to going home after class and seeing my perfect kitty jesus,. i will try to get a photo of him onto the boxy computer thing if i can somehow. i need help signing up for more classes again, i have problems.. don't we all. maybe i'm crazy.. "it's been suggested" [movie quote of the day, winner gets a prize] i was given all the dvds or family guy, and i am enjoying them very much so. i am cutting back on the drinking and the whatnot due to lack of funds, which is good for me oye. that is pretty much all the time i'd like to waste of all you nice people. good day // me

Current Mood: let go [frou frou& i]
Current Music: frou frou - let go

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